CRYING!!!!
it was like 2 months ago when the last time i cried. i know it’s weird, but i do cry always.
i felt so much better now, maybe that is why it rains frequently these few days. the earth must be so stressed out with it’s environmental problem.
hah~!
anyway, just want to apologize to someone, i know you will read this and you know who you are. i sucks i know and im sorry for being –>A. L-o-s-e-r.
three weeks have past,
so fast.
before i will forget everyone,
lemme capture some of the funny quotations of each and everyone.
let me start with .. hmm, let me see..
the most famous guy in the batch,
-LUIS Pereire, just read it as peleleh!
"easyeasy", "hold on hold", and most "annoying" is the phase, "ATTENTION, blahblahblah."
i got to know him, when i was in foundation2, he was in my english drama2 group, where he acted as a Bomoh, at that time, he gave me the impression that he was so quiet and innocent. man! one year later, we met again under this program, and heck! he changed!!! but good also la, last time, he didnt know how to do those R&B style of greeting each other like, "yoh friend, long time no see" while they will do those funny funny action (for my drama of coz.its so funny)
## tired already, shall upgrade soon. keep coming back. its strategy. ##
heelllo……………how are you? hehehe…. finally i can be able to escape from my home to go to KL for 3 weeks.. THREE weeks without actually feeling stressed at home.
where am i ?
im here, staying at The Zon in the Park, and the whole 3 weeks Petrosains-UTP science communication programme will be held in Petrosains, KLCC.
Everything is actually great here. staying in a two rooms apartment,the makcik cleaner will come and do the cleaning, making your bed, washing your dishes, making sure everything will be at their place even if a war had been taken place, everyday. Give them a round applause for their enthusiatics. haha.. crapping again.
well, don’t ask me what is the programme. i dont know. haha. everyday go to petrosains, the first week were consists of talks, and some ice breaking session of coz, tour around the center, visit to the sky brigde, and also, the group assignment, which we need to think of an idea, plan it, create it, implement it, design it and volla, we need to present it to the visitors. MAN! tell me how to explain to the kids about velocity, acceleration, energy… ohya, science communication, i think i got the answer. haha,
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i made a lot of great friends here from all over the world. south africa, mozambique, vietnam, cambodia, sudan, timorleste, pakistan, thailand,and msia also….
superb~ they are friendly and funny. hehe. hehe..
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sien la, i very sien here….. if not i wont online now right? haih… someone, plx cum n find me la.. go anywhere also can.. shooping? omg, mega sales la… i wan to shop~@!!
before i am sitting here, i have lotsa to be written on my blog. i have a lot of thoughts to be shared. but, everytime im here, i can’t find words to write.
okay.
1. i am getting old. i feel pain after one hour of tang soo do training. when i walk, i make sound like ‘uhh’ and ‘ouch’, besides, a hand behind my waist when i walk. 
i dont want to get so pathetic. im only 20 okay… im not an old lady.
2. me n huijing are training for the national tang soo do championship in klang this coming august. master chin said that we have no hope at all, coz the perak team is very good, superb. (ohya, we will be representing selangor team, too old to be in perak’s)… haha.
3. im going to the petrosains program this coming sunday. it will be 3 weeks program and will be free on weekends. will be staying at The Zon In the Park, beside KLCC….those who miss me, come to klcc, and give me a call.
4. im spending much more than i have. im looking forward to find a part time job, or whatever activities that i will be paid. help…
5. i’m extremely bored at home.
ARGHHHHhhhhh…….
no money = no travel, no travel = no fun, no fun = bored to death.
currenlty, im hooked up with the scent of the handkerchief i got from "somewhere". do u ever smell someone, that it makes you so comfortable, relax and relief when you are not in the mood? believe me, start to smell someone. haha
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i went to the "tosay telur" mamak shop near speedy this afternoon, and have one there. did i mentioned that i was alone? someone "ffk-ed" me. haha. the uncle that cooked the tosay is getting older and thinner. he fall asleep on the table while waiting for customers to come.
is that what we called life?
when we were younger, we went to school, to have the best education. after we graduated, we work. we earn. we marriage. we have kids. we DIE.
imagine life without the need of waiting things that you longed for, regretting of what you have done wrong, hoping that things would be better.
for me, life would be perfect when everyone lives happily, without much worries and arguments. It’s nice if you can spend the time with your loved ones, under one roof, preparing meals, cleaning the house, enjoying each other’s companion. (oopss..since when im like a marriaged woman?) but, wouldn’t it be nice like that?
i reached the age of twenty around two months ago and at that time i felt superior and matured enough to handle my own business.
mom bought me a key, indicating that i can be fleed from their supervision.
Besides the feeling of "matured" and the aging signs, i still think i am still weak and young and immature all in all.
being the second youngest in my family, i tend to have all the decisions made, rely on my parents and sisters for everything. whenever i encountered difficulties, i will go to my dad ( something more technical ) and my sisters ( something non technical ).
i have no worries about clothing, i got second-hand clothes from them, (sisters) when i was younger, which means i just accept things that have been arranged accordingly. even the University i’m studying now. i went because i got it by chance, by luck and not by fighting for it. im studying in BIS, because i simply clicked when i apply for the courses. (i didn’t apply for ENGINEERING, because not interested, not because i was not offered). you see, things come and i just follow.
recenlty, major changes took place in my life, well, i should say in everyone’s life, who was involved ,either directly or indirectly could feel the impact of the changes.
things no longer come in a smooth way. sleeps no longer sweet every night.
i have no guidance to handle this situation. i have no sisters by my side to tell me to do this and that, cause it is way too serious. (they have got their "major" problem to face, which they can’t be here, with me, to cure him). the worst part : i don’t know what to tell or say to him, to reassure him things gonna be fine, cause i know that it is not so easy.
at times, i feel like slapping him for his stereotyping thinking. but to think more about it, he is a patience, a victim but also the creator of everything.
it is hard to blame him, the one who you adore, care, love, respect the most for everything.
things are very very hard to be taken care of. i was very ignorance all these while, cause i tend to learn and hear things that i want to know, the rest which is non of my business, i dont give it a damn. whenever i want to know that particular answer, i just ask around. in short i take things for granted. but now, i need to apply things that "not my concern before" in my life now. sigh.
i just feel like running away.
yea, im in my semester break for around 2 months. back to ti, but found myself alone in a small room for ages. why?
i guess i have not involved in social for long that i don’t have anyone to be called or texted for a tea break.
sigh. pathetics.
to those who are in ti now, plz give me a call or msg, for a "yum cha and sek pao" session okay.
btw, number changed. 012 517 1194.
call me, call me, call me.~~~~
i remembered myself complaining about,"wah, my parents never check my homework one, i do it all by myself. my parents never ask for my exam one, i just do my own. hmm, so nice your parents teach you to write and read when u were younger and check your homeworks and grades."
now, he starts to concern about my finals and i tend to freak out. what was in his mind, when he called me? what did he want? i am afraid to answer his phone in fact.
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"birds of the same feather will flocks together?"
i hope that that isn’t true to appy in the relationship among my friends. why?
some people said that in a group of friends, they tend to have the same similiarity that clicks them together, either in the positive, negative, direct or indirect.
i’ve been going through like hell, struggling in between the family conflicts. now, it is getting better, even though not the ending that everyone wants.
my best friend’s dad has got some heart problem, which might requires a lot of money if surgery is to be taken place.
she is now in UK, earning some money before University starts. she is at the midpoint, which is very hard to decide, whether to stay earning money to support any financial problem which might or might not occur, or come back to msia and wait for the Uni starts.
i wonder why do my close-circle of friends need to go through such a tough decision in our life. we are only Twenty, and life is still long to go.
yeah, we are growing older each day, that we need to face Real Problems. no more cycling around, finding for short coconut trees to pluck the coconuts and drink them. no more riding motorbikes in the rain and shout each other’s crush names loud. no more playing basketball at 2 pm. no more.
i just want to pray hard so that everyone is living peacefully, without much changes in their lives. Boring, it might be, but i think it should be a happy ending instead of struglling and finding the best decision and spot to hit into.
Enjoy and appreciate, every seconds. Don’t ruin it or make drastic decision that make huge impacts to the people who are affected. may God bless all. take care~
apart of being sad due to my laptop, im on SAD mode until this friday.
SYSTEM ANALYSIS AND DESIGN, (SAD) in short, see, before u have to study, u already get upset upon hearing the abbreviation of the subject. aiyo, so sad la, to study the SAD subject, sad, sad, sad.
haha
next time, try to think of the title of the books that can make students feel HAPPY? FOOD? ICE-CREAM? RIBENA? HONEY, LOVE-ME. see, if your book’s title is LOVE-ME, wouldnt you will be more enthusiastic in growing fond in reading it?yea, im in LOVE-ME mode, instead of SAD mode.
yeah.:)
another crap entry, haha…
what to do, roomate not here, away for lunch, so got chance to use hers a while. haha,
yeah, carina, you are so CUTE. (to answer your question yday) hahaha.
GOOD LUCK FOR MORAL PEOPLE, who are not morally behaved, for the paper later. 
people say, if u score an A for your moral, you are not a moral person as u memorized the facts,
those who didnt score an A for your moral, they are more morally behaved as you are true to yourself.
so?
i am half-half, coz i scored an B for moral last sem. FAIR, no need to be in dilemma, whether to be morally behaved only in exams or 100%morally behaved besides exam. haha.
yala, blur la. as i said, CRAP.
everyone has attitude right? yealah, attitude, get mad, pissed off, happy and sad.
i am sad and disappointed because my laptop got mad and was pissed off at me since yesterday, before the the very first paper of my FINALS. all my notes and documents were still inside.
You tell me, how am i going to score?
"actually, you can score 4flat this sem, no laptop, no movies, no chatting, no online, no surfing, no distraction!!!" - carina, roomate
HEY, how about my notes????????
luckily, i got this beautiful, pretty, kind-hearted, polite, cute, innocent rOomatE… for letting me use her cute, whitey, big screen laptop for education and online purposes. haha (need to "satay" a bit la….)
tell me what happens to my screen? why does it blinks blinks blinks non stop?
lastly, any laptop for free?
