up and down, left and right

it’s September 3rd 2007, can u imagine how fast time flies?

i have alot of hatred towards myself, for, the reasons i made my life so miserables and complicated yet unfulfilled.

why can’t i be more persistent and strong in making every decisions and would not regret when i looking back on what ive done?

Why must i behaving in an attitude which makes everyone turn off on me?

i have been out of my mind recently, reason? i m not so sure though. but i would like to know, ppl out there, would you be kind enough to drop me a line or two to descibe me? be true and i would accept it. thanks.

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i read an article about why you hate someone so particular, it is because u are jealous of that person and wanted to be him/her, therefore you hate him.her.

true? yeah, i think its true. most of the time, ppl that i dun really like because they are those i am jealous and how i wished i could be her/him.

Life is truely not so fair overall.

i wished to be have faith in God, sometimes, i just want to believe in myself. contradicting?

I want to travel time back, can i?