my life has not been stable yet since last september after receiving call from my sister that afternoon. when i think back of it, this is the main factor that changes everything of mine now and then.
i dont feel secure whenever im in my house anymore. the feeling of excitement goin home has decreases. the feeling of talking freely and randomly in living room has gone. i am afraid to crack stupid jokes or talk loudly anymore after being told not to in a very sacastically way. i am not smiling and laughing like last time. i am very afraid whenever someone is raising up his/her voice…
i remembered back when i was around 6 yrs old. i was being awaken from my afternoon nap in living room by a very loud glass breaking noices and people shouting around… i was so afraid that i didnt even dare to wake up. i was pretending asleep the whole incident kept silence all the while.
that is only part of them. its too many that i cant remember all.. of them and never intend to save in my own memory…coz i will need secondary memory storage to keep all of them….. ha~
nightmates has again arise..i dowan to fall asleep anymore……
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are all the guys are the same?
or,
woman are too loyal to their partner?
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apart from that, i have not yet develop my feelings for studies. there are 4 tests coming next week… four tests in THREE days.. sigh.. i think i gonna do it so badly. help me….. even my accounting test last week i dont even know how to do ques1. i took accounting for spm before le… i just feel so loser now…
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actually, i have many things to write about in my blog.. but i just cant coz i know someone is reading it. so just keep it myself. haha.
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im thinking of writing a book on my life. i guess it would be fun and interesting… hah~
